4 February, 2013  |   4 Comments

Update.

Grandma and Dottie.

Last week I knocked attending the Alt Summit off my life list. I spoke on a panel with some fantastic women. Whitney posted a great recap of it here. I’m back now.

My parents have been staying in a local nursing home this month as a test to see if they should move out here for good. Thanks to last year’s stroke, the left side of mom’s body doesn’t work. Her brain is fine, but the rest of her body needs a great deal of help. I am lucky that she has long-term care insurance.

Still, I have a 3 and a 4 year old. Were the kids older, this could be easier, but when the girls need so much from me, my teeth grind down, emails go unanswered. I tremble with stress most of the time. I should always be helping someone somewhere else and someone always needs my help. I worked every every night, every weekend, I’m burned out.

Crispy burnt.

I feel like an asshole.
Even though I try.
I try to hope.
Oh the melodrama! It is sticky like tar!

It’s time to trim and slice and cut and chop.
As I figure out what I’m doing with my life.

What are you doing with your life?
What do you want to be proud of?


4 thoughts on “Update.

  1. 1
    Laura says:

    I hear you. Mine are two and four. It is hard to accept, but: I can’t do everything, and it’s not letting anyone down for me to take time to take care of myself.

  2. 2

    i think about this all the time. it’s part of the reason why i left my law job last year – life is too short and i have to honor my priorities. my kids will only be young once. that said, i’m finding it HARD to take care of my three littles, plus the hubs, plus the house, plus my businesses PLUS make time for me. i understand the stress. and i try to only take my anxiety meds when i’m absolutely freaked out. *hugs*

  3. 3
    Erica says:

    It’ OK if you can’t help everyone. It’s also OK to be the one who needs some help.

  4. 4

    I know this feeling all too well, but for what it’s worth, I loved your Alt panel! It was well worth the time and effort 🙂

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