Pamie, however is dealing with all the attention like a pro.
(Probably because she IS a pro.)
This week I sent three proposals and presented a business plan. A friend had a baby. That was cool. I wrote a few press releases, client copy and drove to a lunch meeting. This week I hosted 8 people for bridge. Last night, I went to a birthday party, where we gathered around to watch my family on yesterday morning’s Good Morning America. Tonight we have another party to attend, and tomorrow, another one after that. It’s a busy week.
This whole Barbie thing has been both embarrassing and fun. I got to see how this silly thing grew and grew and eventually my Google Alert sent me a CNN article about the whole thing in Portugese.
I ain’t mad at Barbie. I’m mad at a culture — especially a digital culture — that devalues women except for how they present themselves visually and sexually.
Most of my friends find this whole viral thing thrilling.
I’ve discovered that this just makes my stomach hurt.
As of today, I’m 80 percent closer to taking everything personal I ever wrote off the internet. This is because thanks to my view of this news machine from the inside, I’m afraid. I’ve never been afraid of the internet before.
At this particular time in the internet’s history, anyone with a beef against me, no matter how big or small, can take anything I’ve posted from the last 15 years online and use it as evidence of my… terribleness.
Yep, maybe that thing I wrote when I was 23 was sort of racist/offensive/stupid in hindsight. But I’ll be held to the standard of today’s context-blind digital mobs, not held to the standard of my small group of internet friends.
It’s just too risky.
I’m too scared of misrepresentation.
I’m too scared of what the evidence will tell you about me.
I read no comments about this whole thing.
I’m scared of those too.
(Here is where the voice in my head says, “Oh GOD SHUT UP HELEN JANE, get a backbone, stop your bitching, you were a part of it, own it you cow.”)
When it comes to watching the information machine craft, churn and amplify, I’m not convinced I want to be a part of it anymore.
Are you an enthusiastic member of today’s digital sharer?
Convince me not to box this whole thing up and put it away.