2 May 2008 2 Comments

Zenith

Baby, it’s the last letter, letter Z.
(This one has caused me almost as much consternation as X.)

As I type this, I sit in the backyard on a stolen wireless internet connection, our furniture all sits in the garage.(Your new car seat and stroller sit there too.)

Carpet installers crawl throughout our home.
We get new flooring for your arrival.
We’re excitedly preparing the house for your arrival.

We’ve been awash in advice lately, most lately, it’s “don’t go all out for a nursery or material goods.” Other than some paint and some room reordering, we haven’t, really. It’s just that Papa and I want to make things beautiful for your arrival. You’re our most honored guest, and we want to show you how very much we appreciate your company.

(Be a good host is probably the number one Hearn guideline.)

Back to Z.
There are three Z letters to you, but they’re all of one of my favorite words, Zenith.

Zenith in the sky, follow me around

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I love astronomy.

I loved the class,
I loved learning about the planets,
I even endured all the math that astronomy required.

But, baby, as you’ll find out, we have to make decisions about where our attentions are paid. See, I also wanted to be an

obstetrician, I wanted to be a secretary, I wanted to be an artist, I wanted to be an astronomer, I wanted to act, I wanted to write, I wanted to serve.
That’s a lot to roll into one life.

My baser instincts won out and now I consult about the internet for the adult beverage industry. It’s exciting and exasperating and I love it. But that doesn’t keep me from indulging my inner astronomer every short while.

In science talk, Zenith means the highest point above the observer’s horizon in which the observer can see a celestial body.

If you’re looking from either the North or South pole, your zenith is a celestial pole; but if you’re anywhere else, the zenith is a point in the sky where you’ll view a right ascension and left declination as the sky rotates over your head.

(The point right below you is your nadir.)

Okay, that’s a bit much for your first lesson about astronomy. But if you’re interested, we can get a telescope, a patch of dark sky and some hot chocolate and I’ll be thrilled to go over it again.

Let’s observe the above with love.

Zenith Dollarbill is real

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When your Auntie and I were little girls, we played dressuppretend every day.

We had a whole cast of characters. A snotty rich boy named Georgeus, snotty, the beleaguered Hattie, a mean girl named Prissy and

our favorite, Zenith Dollarbill.

Zenith Dollarbill was a wealthy elderly lady with a mean countenance and a heart of gold.

Much of our creative input came in the form of the television shows “Three’s Company” and “the Love Boat.” On those shows, grownups hung out in a bar, a classy bar, where everyone looked glamorous. So to emulate those glamorous actors, we played bar.

We took turns playing Zenith. One of us would be her attentive bartender, making sure she had lots of fresh pretend ice in her drink. Zenith only drank Suicides, a mixture of all the drinks available in the fridge upstairs. She always tipped the bartender well because she would often become very drunk.

Zenith wore a fancy teal evening gown, a fur mink stole and a pink hat with flowers on it.
When I am an elderly lady, I hope to wear the same outfit Zenith did.
When I am an elderly lady, I hope to drink Suicides with gusto.

When you are growing up, I hope you play lots of pretend.
I hope you are a good tipper,
I hope you are kind to your bartender,
I hope you turn out as classy as Zenith.

(Without the very drunk part, of course.)

Never reach your zenith

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The point of culmination, the zenith, is a point we all strive for. We work hard to reach the peak so that we can retire,
we can quit,
we can give up.

That seems like a very sad goal.

Baby, always strive to reach your zenith. Even when you think you’ve reached it, you will need another peak, another point of culmination.

You have one great role model for that. My mom, your grandmother is in her goldenest years.

She has reached the zenith of her career several times, in music, in theology, in nursing, in education. She’s strives for success in writing, again in theology and in family. She’s not done yet, in fact, she’s one of the busiest people I’ve met. And she will keep striving toward that culmination of effort.

You should too.

1 May 2008 Comment

Yuck, Yesterday, Youth

Yuck means yuck

Y
When I think of all the gross things I stuck my fingers,
that I tasted,
that I played with as a kid, I cringe.

I remember poking at a captured leech for hours.
I remember spending much of five years old with a finger up my nose.
I remember sticky shirts, dirty faces and dirty bathwater.

When I say yuck, I mean yuck.
I would like to save you the embarassment of my memories.
Drop it.

Yesterday is gone

Y
I’ve spent too much time feeling bad about what I did yesterday.
Yesterday is gone.
I cannot change it.
I cannot edit my actions.
There’s nothing I can do differently.

Think about yesterday, yes.
Learn from yesterday, yes.
But obsess about yesterday?
Please no.

Yesterday is gone.

Youth isn’t appreciated until too late

Y
I went to French Fridays tonight at Taylor’s Refresher.
We’ll take you, it’s where the grownups take their kids and everyone is happy.
The kids can scream and run on the grass, the parents can have a glass of wine and some french fries.

Watching the kids run and run and run and run
made me wish for that kind of energy.

I remember when I had to grind my teeth to absorb all the energy I felt vibrating in my fingers.

I wanted to rundancescreamtwirl.
(Part of growing up is realizing appropriate rundancescreamtwirl time.)

But by the time you learn when and where to rundancescreamtwirl, it’s too late.
(You’d rather chase the opposite sex or download music.)

Or maybe take a nap.

I want to appreciate your youth.
I want to give you appropriate places for rundancescreamtwirling.
I want to try it out, and maybe muster energy for myself.

For lately I’ve been so tired.

30 April 2008 4 Comments

On its way

We’re just a little delayed due to bocce and
emotions not felt before pregnancy and
moving all of our furniture into the garage and
painting all of our walls and
the cable guy.

I’ll write the last letters tomorrow.
And I’ll put them in a poster.
And a book.
Just for the baby.

XOXO.

29 April 2008 1 Comment

Xanadu, X-Axis, xBox

I’ve dreaded the “X” entry for the last 27 days.
Baby, I apologize, there’s just not a lot of inspiring X words.

Xanadu

X

When we were little kids, your auntie used to leave dinner early to go to the bathroom. From the bathroom, she’d sing the song Xanadu sung by Olivia Newton John from the movie Xanadu.

We’d all giggle from the table hearing her five year old voice warble, “Xaaaaanaaaduuuuuuu….”
That’s all I have for you.

The X-Axis is horizontal

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The x-axis is horizontal.
The y-axis is vertical.

I sometimes have a hard time remembering that, but now you don’t have to.

Practice your xBox

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Your Papa’s favorite hobby, after making music and playing bocce, is playing xBox.
(He’s pretty good at it too.)

I’ve been taking lots of Omega 3 acids so that your hand and eye coordination is primed. At least that’s what the research about fetal development says this year.
(Who knows what it’ll say by the time you read this?)

I just wanted to tell you that it would tickle your Papa if you played xBox with him. It would probably irritate the heck out of him if you beat him at his favorite games. I’ll leave that decision up to you.

Grin.

28 April 2008 2 Comments

Write, Work, Why?

Write it down and throw it away

W

Some people like to express feelings they’re uncomfortable saying in person through a letter.

oommates do this with nasty notes.
Relatives do this with letters detailing how they’ve been wronged.

My advice?

If you feel wronged, write it all down in a letter to that person and throw it away.

You’ve now articulated your position so you can
work through it on your own or
resolve the issue in person.

Expressing your feelings in a letter isn’t fair to the recipient.
They have no recourse.
They can’t explain themselves.
Letters aren’t fair.

If you need to express an unpleasant feeling on paper, do it, rip it up and speak to the offender in person.
We’ll all be healthier for it.

Work is work

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Oh! If you love what you do, you’ll never work a day in your life! What a glorious sentiment!

Still, I love what I do more than most folks, and it’s still work.
There are still trash cans to be emptied, dishwashers to be filled, phone calls to be made.
And it’s all work.

I’d rather eat a meal with my family and friends.
I’d rather watch Lost or South Park.
I’d rather canoe down a river.

Don’t get suckered into believing that if you just loved what you did enough, it wouldn’t come with discomfort.
That’s a useless regret.

You will always need to choose between activities.

Some will bring you joy, some will bring you irritation.
This is life.

Baby, I hope you have more joy than irritation.
I hope you love your work.

The Why game

W

I was in the grocery store last week. It was a long line. Behind me was a television personality with her young son. He was playing the “Why?” game.

After this, we’re going to make dinner.

Why?

Because your dad, you and I need to eat.

Why?

Because it’s 4:30 in the evening and that’s when we start dinner.

Why?

Because of the earth’s rotation on its axis and the location of the sun…etc.

Now when my friends with two young kids get suckered into the “Why?” game they turn it into a critical thinking exercise.
“Why do you think?”

Why do you think indeed.